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Sex, Empowerment, and Madonna

"Madonna broke all the rules when women were too oblivious to realize that the rules needed to be broken."

Madonna's recent Woman Of The Year award speech for the Billboard Women In Music 2016 has been a stimulus for me to think about her influence over my sexuality and feelings as an empowered woman.  Madonna's Like A Virgin record (no CDs then!) came out when I was just 16, still a virgin myself and just entering into a relationship with my first boyfriend.  Madonna launched into the world as an openly sexual woman, which was an even stronger mirror over the years once she released her sex book and her Erotica album.  I still have memories of dancing at the bar with my friends in my early twenties, with the video of Justify My Love (from Immaculate Collection album) on the screen, educating me on what 'open-minded' sexuality could look like.

At the time, I followed the flow of what society was saying about her - some were happy with her brazenness and saying it was about time that someone female expressed what sexuality could be. Others condemned her (and more condemned her, according to her in her Billboard speech as you can see below). Madonna herself in this video recounts how she was accused of setting women back by objectifying herself sexually, that she was a witch, a whore, even Satan.  After watching Madonna's full Billboard speech, I actually have more respect for her.

Madonna is a trailblazer.  Her one line is very telling -  "I remember wishing that I had a female peer that I could look to for support."

There wasn't one.

Madonna paved the way for all of us to more openly embrace our sexuality, and she has the scars to prove it.  She is emotional when she gives this speech, showing that even now, so many years later, it still hurts to her core in how she was vilified. And yet, she trudged on.  She decided she would be a 'bad feminist' and created her own definition of what that meant.

We need more Madonnas in the world.  She has continued to be seen in the entertainment years, for over 30 years as one of the women that has shaped not only music today, but expression of one's self.  Madonna broke all the rules when women were too oblivious to realize that the rules needed to be broken.

I saw her in concert in Minneapolis 5 years ago for my 40th birthday.  I was actually quite disappointed in the concert itself, because she didn't come onto stage until 10:45 (or maybe it was even 11:45 pm), with no opening act, concert starting at 8 pm. We were told as soon as we gave our tickets in, at the Target Centre that we were 'not allowed to leave but Madonna wouldn't be on for 3 hours'.  By the time Madonna did actually come on stage 3 hours later, though it was a good concert, her treatment of her fans left a bitter taste in my mouth.

But this isn't about the fact that she may be a potential diva - and no, for those thinking, 'maybe something went wrong', she had everyone waiting the night before til the same time, and many tour reviews commented on her late starts, with no opening acts.  But after watching her speech, I realize I need to be thinking 'bigger picture' about Madonna.

What has she accomplished for women?  Or better yet, what has she accomplished for me?

I believe one of the reasons I am so open sexually is due to Madonna.  Her showing that route as 'a path' - not the only path but certainly a path - made it a choice.  Had I not had her mirror, I would have stayed in the sexual repression that I think way too many women still stay in, even now in 2016.  So for that reason alone, Madonna is a positive, grand influence in my life.  She has shaped the kind of men I have been/am attracted to, what they offer a woman, as well as give me the option of holding equal power with a man in the bedroom.  I somehow doubt "I have a headache" is an expression that is ever uttered by male or female when Madonna is around.  She is sexuality on a stick - raw, 'in your face', and begging for you to consider how YOU feel about what she portrays.

So instead of slut, whore, devil/Satan or feminism crasher, I'm going to continue to see her as the Trailblazer that she truly has been, and still is.

Thanks Madonna.  My sexuality thanks you.  My frankness for 'no bullshit' expression thanks you.  And most of all, my glass ceiling thanks you because I realize there really doesn't have to be one, unless I want there to be one, of course. :)

Cheers to Madonna and her willingness to have crashed first through the female sexuality glass ceiling, to a place that many before her were too full of fear or cowardice to plunge through.

Sorry it's been such a struggle and you've had to put up with so much shit.  But we stand with you now, a little stronger, a little wiser, and realize you've opened us to potentials that without you, we may never have discovered.  Cheers to you.

 

And her full acceptance speech:

http://www.justjared.com/2016/12/14/video-madonnas-full-billboard-woman-of-the-year-award-speech/

Written by Maureen Becker — December 14, 2016

We Will Get Through This - SAM's perspective on the election of Trump

"...the outcome is that over time, we are going to have a higher consciousness planet as a result of this choice.  Over time, due to experiencing the volatility of this contrast learning, the lesson of love, peace, and tolerance will be learned." - SAM

 

I have a feeling of great peace overflowing in me and have since about 2 am when SAM started deeply downloading this transmission of their perspective on Trump winning the presidency.  I'm going to channel SAM 'full channel' with their personality fully in place in the hopes that you will be able to feel the calmness and Truth of their words as well.  -Maureen

From SAM (collective consciousness named Securely Attached to Mankind because they are committed to helping us with our journey in this game of life):

Dear ones, we write this today in the hopes of calming down many of you who have already reached out to Maureen & Guides in fear and worry over the fact that Donald Trump is the president-elect after yesterday's election.  If you listen back to our radio shows even in the Spring (http://www.newsforthesoul.com/shows/just-a-normal-chick-who-channels/), we were always saying that Donald Trump was here as an opportunity for the planet to get a consciousness lesson.  Trump has been the magnet to pull out of hiding all of the lower consciousness aspects of people that need shifting in order for the consciousness to change for the planet to be one of more love and less hate.  Donald Trump is a mirror.  He is the mirror of the anger, dissatisfaction with the political system and government in and of itself.  He is a mirror of the underlying hatred, bigotry, racism, sexism and misogyny that takes place on a daily basis, all around the world, not just in the USA.  As Donald Trump began to speak out against minority groups, immigrants, LGBTQ rights, pro-choice rights, and the likes of basically every human who is not white and like him, he truly was speaking for the lower consciousness aspects present in the world.  Not an aspect of the world that anyone would like to admit exists, but an aspect of the world that DOES exist, never the less.  Thus as a result, instead of his comments being shot down and him being held accountable for the hatred he spoke, instead, he gained followers.  The problem is not with Donald Trump himself.  The problem is with the amount of people who think like Donald Trump, and believe that this narcissist, power-hungry man, once in power, will actually care about their woes enough to create the change that so many people are deeply and desperately seeking.

We also were clear in our radio show that this whole election was a 'test'.  Bernie Sanders was one that was offering up pathways towards great change.  He didn't win the Democratic nomination.  Right from the beginning, Donald Trump was ruffling many Republican feathers within his own ranks, but the group did not step up and denounce him as a representative of their views.  Instead, most endorsed him (less so after he continued to open up his mouth and spew hatred).  Both in Bernie Sanders' more radical view of change as well as Trump's magnetic nature of pulling out the lower consciousness thoughts of the people, many chose to turn a blind eye.  What we mean by this, is that in this time frame, before Trump was even the nominee elect for the Republican party, and before Hillary Clinton was the nominee elect for the Democratic party, THIS was when the lesson and mirroring could have been enough for deep change. Right then. Just the IDEA that the best two candidates that the USA could offer at that time would be Hillary Clinton and Donald Trump, was a test in consciousness, in and of itself.  At that moment, with no further contrast, the USA people could have 'seen the writing on the wall' of what this election could become, and have chosen other candidates.  But the world (and USA in this case, which we see as the microcosm mirror of the macrocosm) was not ready to make this shift with so little contrast.  The people needed more contrast 'to learn the lesson'.  And thus, instead of Bernie Sanders, Hillary Rodham Clinton was elected to run for president for the Democrats.  And instead of ANY other Republican choice (any choice would have been better), Donald Trump was elected to represent the Republicans.

This is where the game got more interesting.  As the election ensued, it became more clear that neither party was ideal.  We in our radio show started getting across the message that if truly the choice was between Hillary Clinton and Donald Trump, that the lesser of the two evils was Hillary Clinton.  This message, due to the fact that Donald Trump will not keep any of his promises because he has been proven again and again to be a compulsive liar who will say whatever anyone wants to hear. (which by the way is the trait of a very compelling narcissist).  More contrast began, and the healing of the planet began. More people began to speak up about how awful this choice was, but the focus was even more on how dangerous it would be if Trump were to be elected.  More people were speaking out against Trump's mirror of racism/bigotry/sexism/misogyny.  Trump made it very easy for people to prove their point.  The more he opened his mouth, the more hatred and intolerance for others came out.  Again, 'the lesson' could have been learned there.  That is the mirror - knowing there are so many supporters of Trump - that the true issue is that too many people are feeling it is okay for people to think this way about other fellow human beings.  Trump rallies showed the hatred spreading, with Trump even inciting violence and some 'followers' complying.  All of the mirrors of 'the lesson' have been present the whole time.

So what does it mean that Trump was chosen as president-elect? It means that unfortunately, USA as the microcosm mirror for the planet, has shown that as a planetary consciousness, we need more contrast experiences in which to learn.  To play this game of life, you have two ways to experience everything that happens to you. You can live through a lens of suffering and 'hard path', or you can live through an easier path of joy and positive learning.  Meaning, you may learn the same lesson (ex. to love one another), but you learn by either experiencing the fallout of not loving one another, or you learn the lesson by the very act of loving one another.  This choice made 'by the people' overwhelmingly last night, is showing that at this particular stage in the game of the collective consciousness of the planet, you are not ready to learn by the easy path of love and joy.  You still need the contrast.

And contrast you will have.  Donald Trump will behave at first.  As pompous as he is, this new brand of power has gone to his head and even in his own mind, he will 'try to do right by his country'.  However, this will not last, because of the true nature of his personality. At his core, he is disconnected from his own Essence. He is not in power as the president-elect to 'serve his country'. He is in power to gain more power, and to acquire another notch on his belt.  It is not about 'the people', it is about him.  So yes dear ones, for all of you who are upset and deeply grieving about the fact that 'the people have spoken' and the USA overwhelmingly wants Trump as the representative of who they are, you have much to grieve.  For you, those of you who could see clearly how dangerous Trump could be, not only for USA but for relations around the world, are a person that we would call 'a seeker'.  You are someone who is more able to see the bigger picture, to look at all elements of the game at the same time (rather than voting for someone ignoring all of their other qualities because you want to get rid of Obamacare or avoid stricter gun laws, as an example).  You seekers KNOW that this will mean more contrast for the world.  And you don't want any more contrast, because as a seeker, you have already chosen that you would much rather play this game from the positive side of the coin (through joy and 'easy path').

However, though you have many people who are also seekers and share this consciousness of love rather than hate, unity rather than division, and inclusion rather than exclusion, it is not enough.  Because the magnitude of the lower consciousness aspects that are within all of us (including you), are still too present.  So many people voted for Trump, because they resonated with him, as disturbing as that is.  And if you are reading this and you did put in a vote for Trump, we are not saying you are a bad person.  What we are saying however, is that you did not hold the consciousness as of yet to see the bigger picture and that no matter what Trump is telling you at this time, he will not keep his promise, because quite frankly, he is incapable of it.  Read up on the concept of narcissism itself,if you doubt us. A narcissist cares about no one but himself. Trump will serve as president for his gain. No one else's.  And due to your own fears and pain and anger, the idea of keeping the status quo felt worse to you, than 'change'.  Even volatile change.  And as a result, you felt Trump was the better choice.

There is Hope.

HOWEVER, and it is a big however....even though this choice has been made 'by the people', there is hope. Lots of hope.  The lesson all along has been about aiming the planet towards a greater level of peace, love, and tolerance.  You will reach this greater level, but you will have to go down before you come up and out of it.  By choosing Trump as your leader, and his personality, you have chosen a more hard path and volatile pathway to discover that in the end, the only thing that is truly going to save you from your anger and pain, is love. Not more hate. Not kicking immigrants out of the country. Not punishing women for pro choice.  Not ending same sex rights.  You will realize that the more you try to divide in order to conquer your pain, the only thing that will be victorious is more hatred. And thus, you will learn the lesson.  It may not be pretty, and there may have to be some really uncomfortable moments for both the country of USA and the world, before everyone raises in consciousness enough to say 'no more'.  In fact, it may takes years of this contrast to figure it out.  But you will figure it out. All of you.  Even those of you who voted for Trump in this election.

And thus, there IS hope.  Whether you choose easy path or hard path, the outcome is that over time, we are going to have a higher consciousness planet as a result of this choice.  Over time, due to experiencing the volatility of this contrast learning, the lesson of love, peace, and tolerance will be learned.  So though you do have the right to grieve today - for those who already could see that the path of Donald Trump will lead to more contrast, not more love - be assured that as he moves into the presidency with a chip on his shoulder that he is the king of the world, he will sooner or later fall.  And he will fall because of you.  Just as so many of you put him into office, even more of you will ensure he does not stay in office.  The collective consciousness of love will win out in the end.

So what does that mean, in the meantime?  NOW WHAT???

Breathe.  Getting angry at those who voted for Trump is not going to solve anything here.  They voted for him because they have lost their job and believe Trump when he says he will get more jobs coming back into the USA.  They voted for him because they live in so much fear in their daily lives that they need to carry a gun to the grocery store, and fear more regulations being put on guns and their right to bear arms.  Things may have to get worse before they get better, as you have already been seeing for months. The Black Lives Matter movement is a perfect example of something that shouldn't even be happening in 2016 - black individuals getting shot by white police officers for doing nothing to invoke them. This is a sign of the times to come.  More contrast. More extremes.  More moments of "Is this for real???  How can people not be seeing this??"  And by these moments, these moments of darkness will promote change.  More of you will bond together in local movements such as the 'Black Lives Matter' movement. More of you will connect together in efforts to squeeze out this lower consciousness lens on the world.  And you will win.  It will take time, but you will win.

Try not to be overwhelmed at it all this morning.  In the bigger picture, Trump winning yesterday has assured that this consciousness shift will happen. With free will, it's still a matter of time as to 'how much contrast' you as USA citizens, and us as world citizens will need to explore and experience before we reach our 'enough' point. (Clearly the hint of this much contrast back at the beginning of election time wasn't enough for the shift.)  However we will reach that boiling over point.  And yes, it will be uncomfortable.  All of us in the world, not just the USA, need to sit in the knowing today that hatred, bigotry, fear-mongering and scapegoating won out.  But it is only a matter of time before even the Trump voters see that Trump has not kept his word, he IS volatile in office, and that something must be done.

So breathe.  The world will not end.  It will get a bit more real, the hatred that was more insidiously covered is now out in the open as Trump won by an overwhelming majority of people who felt it was okay to turn a blind eye to all of his flaws, still citing him as 'better than Hillary'.  So there is much more to learn.  But learn it you will.  Because this is the game.  What you need to learn as a person, and as a planet, is inherent.  What differs, by free will, is HOW you learn it - either through 'hard path' contrast experience, or 'easy path'.  Though a harder path has been chosen, those of you who can see the Truth now can still choose easy path.  You can choose to stay connected to your own Essence connection and inner  guidance system enough that you know what to do as these contrasts ensue.  That you too, will not be pulled down to the lower consciousness level that needs to rid itself in this world before we can experience a higher consciousness living grid.  So truly, each and every one of you have the opportunity here to 'connect more'.  To connect more with others, to connect more within.  Trump as the contrast, can force those who are awake to connect more with Source itself, which is the very frequency and nature that you will need to overcome his mirroring of hatred and intolerance long term.  So think of this as needing to have lost your house, your job, your life savings, in order to learn that you need to be a better money manager.  You perhaps didn't need to have that much contrast, but the core lesson was still learned and the outcome of being a better money manager in the future, assured.

So, do you trust your own inner Essence connection? Do you trust that you will be grounded enough to have the right response, when more of this contrast hits?  Or do you fear you will fall prey to lower consciousness responses yourself? THIS is what you should be thinking about today dear ones. The stage has been set. It has been chosen for USA and the world that things will become more volatile to learn the lesson.  What state of mind do you want to be in when the volatility comes?  Do you want to be grounded and anchored in the Truth lens that is provided by your own Essence connection? Or do you want to get unhinged by the fear and anger and act out in lower consciousness in response?  Hate begets hate.  Love begets love.

THAT is what the focus needs to be - now what?  What do I, as a being who is a seeker, need to do now to ensure that I am strapped in for the ride?  How do I make sure that I raise my consciousness as a result of this opportunity for learning, rather than lower it???

As always, questions are welcome.  We will try to answer them as best as we can.

Be strong America. No matter how many people voted Trump in, we assure you that more than that will end up voting him out...whether it be in months to come or years to come, his reign will not last forever. Nor will his lens of the world.  So choose wisely until then what YOUR response is to his antics, stay within your own Source connection, and all will be well as the planet moves towards more tolerance, peace, and love.

Namaste.

Securely Attached to Mankind

Written by Maureen Becker — November 09, 2016

Fat Chicks Can Float Too

I was gifted with a 'float' (FloatCalm.com - great place, awesome staff) for my 45 birthday.  I have avoided the idea of going for a float even though I have heard how much it can open the mind, due to my fear of claustrophobia.  But when I was pushed to go by receiving this gift, I realized that this could be a great way of moving past my comfort zone, as a way truly of celebrating my birthday.  Go big or go home, right?  So today, as the beginning of a weekend of pushing myself past my comfort zone, I went.

I was a little worried about how I would feel, being 'one' with the water and supposedly not being able to feel where my body ends and the water begins.  Would I want that alteration of consciousness? I have alterations in consciousness all the time by channelling SAM, but I knew this would be a different experience. I was game for trying.

What I found instead of 'being one with the water' was an awesome surprise of learning to 'be one with myself as the fat chick'.  I was expecting to lose my feeling of my heavy body, and then be upset when I came out of the tank to feel all the weight of my excess fat back on.  I had this sensation when I was pregnant and doing water aerobics, my baby belly being buoyed by the water and at the end of this hour, walked out of the water and feeling the weight of my belly return. It was a depressing feeling, no matter how much gravity had to do with it. That feeling and memory has stuck with me for 17 years.

However, my float experience didn't disconnect me from my body enough to feel the weight change.  What happened instead is I heard my heart beat so clearly (thank you, ear plugs) and my breath, and I became one with my body, every fat inch of it.  I realized as I floated, how stupid it was to be caught up in fearing 'the heavy feeling' even if it was what was to occur when I came out of the deprivation tank. My body was a miracle, just in its very nature, regardless of its size. This was the body I have chosen to create, is it not? Every pound of flesh that has been gained has been gained by my choices.  It was my choice to do this 'social experiment' of gaining my weight, really delving into the depths of my addictions to sugar/food and seeing where it took me.  I CHOSE my body.  So why am I not wanting to feel myself in it?

Not sure what happened in that deprivation tank of 90 minutes but I came out loving myself.  And a step closer to loving my fat self too.  Not only did I as the fat chick float just like everyone else (the miracles of tonnes of epsom salts, don't ya love chemistry) but I became grateful for being alive by this experience, rather than focusing on my physical weight.

Social experiment or not, today reminded me that focusing on my body as something that is approved or unapproved of by society, is a grand distraction. I need to remind myself of my epiphany of health.  After a few years of my experience with the weight gain, exploring the different ways I was treated by both men and women, I felt I had learned all that I had needed to learn. "Okay, time to get the fat suit off, I've learned that it's about health and not what weight you are anyway, okay, let's get the weight off now."  One of the lessons may very well be health, and of course I knew there were lessons in self-love, but today I realized that I have not truly reached the goal of self love for my body. I may love my body, but I don't love my 'fat body'.  If I had, I wouldn't be regretting the potential 'heaviness' feeling I would feel after floating for 1 1/2 hours, would I?  I have been tolerating my body, in my efforts to 'get the lesson'. But I have not loved my fat body, just in its very nature for allowing me to be alive playing this game of life, and in acknowledgement of what I have chosen to weigh in this current time frame.

So I suppose this starts now.  New territory for me.  I had joined Weight Watchers a few months ago and had lost 10 pounds and all of a sudden found myself at a standstill.  I realize now, after feeling that 'oneness with my fat chick' that it's because the focus is still about losing weight. The focus has not been about loving myself, or getting healthier, but losing weight because of the societal belief that I am not enough the way I am. It's okay to have gained this weight to learn your lesson that you don't feel as healthy, but to stay this way?  Well that surely can't be the lesson!!  Can it???

Weight Watchers' motto is even 'beyond the scale', but they are not quite there.  The focus is still walking into that room and getting weighed, so no matter how much they focus on other things (and they are WAY better than a decade ago about having a more balanced approach), the subliminal message still is that you are only succeeding if that scale needle is going to go down as you continue to show up there week to week. So is it really beyond the scale?

I hit my plateau of weight loss because I went in to Weight Watchers as an attempt at gaining health, good food recipes, but lost my focus.  After I started losing weight and getting rewarded and commended for losing 1 or 2 pounds per week, I let my consciousness shift to become about the weight loss again.  Not the health, not the quality of life, but about making sure I would come back next week with another 'goal' reached (whatever that was).  The WW Leaders were doing speeches about how our goals need to be more than just about the weight loss per week, but about how we feel, the baby steps of exercise, but I wasn't buying it.  And why not?  Because everyone sitting in those chairs (95% women) were needing to hear that speech because they were upset that they had only lost .8 lbs that week even though they had 'done everything right'.  Too much of the focus was still to pep the women up about looking past the weight loss itself (which is great that they are teaching this now), but the collective itself, were still beaconing off "I am not worthy because I didn't lose my 1-2 pounds this week."  Somewhere, this unconscious collective thought process got back in under my skin, even though i didn't think it was. And as as result?  I've rebelled, not wanting to sit among the women in that collective, feeling bad about themselves because they had hoped for a 2 pound loss, but the scale said otherwise. I don't want this to be about the weight I lose, or the magic number that is 'my goal'.  No matter what is being said by the leaders, the actual weighing and recording it and getting stickers for every 5 pound loss belies all else that is being said.  I let myself get soaked back into the lie. (damn it)

How did I kid myself into thinking that this was going to help me achieve my self-love in an extremely overweight body as well as health?  I used the wrong resource in attempts to learn the lesson. And as a result, couldn't go farther than a few pounds before my body/mind rebelled.

During the float, I wasn't thinking about any of this.  I was enjoying the feeling of being a mermaid, as I felt my hair flow in the water back and forth like seaweed, as I moved my body ever so slightly to see if I could feel the difference between my skin temperature and the water temperature.  My float was not about attempting to achieve an out-of -body experience. Ironically, my float gave me the in-of-body experience that I have been avoiding since I was fat.  SAM says I 'grounded into my body' today.  For the first time since being 60-100 pounds overweight.

So it seems my explorations with being fat are NOT over.  If this is the first time I've really grounded into my body since gaining all of this weight, then I have really not loved 'the fat chick'.  Toleration is a far cry from loving oneself.  So okay then, it appears that exploring the world from the perspective of this heavy-weight body is yet to be done.  I guess I will be experiencing the plane ride to California this month wishing my hips were smaller because the width of the seat is too small.  I suppose walking around all day at Disney in an overweight body is going to be more cumbersome than if I had lost the 20 pounds i had hoped to lose by the time my trip rolled around.  Seems my Essence has a different plan.  My inability to love myself as fat, means I will be 'fat' for longer.  I will have to prepare for Disney family pictures with my double chin.  I have clearly NOT gotten the lesson.  I was only willing to love myself if I would lose the weight, with the lesson having been 'health'.  I really didn't get it.

Here's to learning the true lesson, the depth about self-love, even when others see you as unlovable and unacceptable due to your size. What a grand journey to have to find a true love for yourself anyway, in spite of the brainwashing in society. I thought I was there months ago, in understanding, but my float today showed me clearly I am not.  I am yet still a work-in-progress on this theme.

I will definitely be getting my bigger, cellulite booty back in that float tank though.  If this step towards appreciation for my fat body could come out of 90 minutes, what could come out of a bi-monthly float?  This gal is about to find out.

Happy floating peeps, I highly recommend it.  And happy loving yourselves too. I hope that any and all that are reading this are truly happy with their bodies and can truly say they love themselves in their bodies, regardless of their flaws.  I look forward to that divine experience of self-acceptance myself.

Not.  There.  Yet.

to be continued....

 

Maureen Becker & Lisa Davis-Peters at Spirit Seekers Conference

NEW March 18: FRIDAY EVENT
Frequency Healing and Readings with 

Maureen Becker & Lisa Davis-Peters
$39.00
 
Working together for the first time in public, Maureen Becker of Source Within and Lisa Davis-Peters of LDP Music, offer up an evening filled with tools for transformation, personal and group readings, and healing channelled music!

Both channels in their own right, Maureen and Lisa each bring their own unique styles of healing together to offer a powerful experience and resource. Maureen has been channelling her primary guide, SAM, since 2006 and is committed to working with them to bring forward teachings, guidance, and tools of how to play an empowered game of life. Lisa has also been channelling since 2006, and welcomed in her newest guides in the past few years in order to bring forward the highest frequencies possible through sound and energy healing.

Lisa and Maureen have been journeying together since their teenage years, and as they both opened to their channelling talents at their own paces, they have come to discover the complementary nature of their healing gifts. Maureen & Guides help people discover their Essence and internal guidance system, and how to use this power to manifest a life that is positive, intuitive, and joyful. Lisa and her guides offer up channelled healing frequencies through music to read and rebalance energy fields; getting to the root of any imbalance. Together, they combine their gifts and offer the "1-2 Punch" of guidance and healing. 

From 7:00 pm - 10:00 pm, Maureen and Lisa will work together intuitively, offering both channelled music and teachings/readings for the group in attendance. Individual readings by Maureen and musical readings by Lisa will also be a part of the evening. While they cannot guarantee individual readings for all in attendance, they can guarantee that all the teaching topics and healing music frequencies will be created by 'reading' the room, so there will be healing shifts for all.
 
 
 

Cooper's Legacy Begins...Can We Keep It Going?

The senselessness of the death of Cooper Nemeth has affected many, as can be seen by the posts being shared on social media.  The Nemeth family has one request, and it is a good one - that as the media releases the name and information of who is accountable for Cooper's death, to NOT send around the posts and pictures of this man.  He does not deserve the attention, even negative attention.  What DOES deserve the attention here is how to see any positive outcomes out of such a tragedy and loss.

Nothing can be done to bring Cooper back.  Yes, justice can be served by incarcerating his murderer.  But there needs to be more of a consciousness shift from this senseless act than just a man being held accountable, doesn't there?

One shift that has been a beautiful step towards inclusion of communities is that the Bear Clan Patrol came out as part of the massive search party for Cooper since his disappearance February 14.  This indigenous 'Neighbourhood Watch' group of North End streets, led by Larry Morrissette and James Favel, had every right to turn their back. How many years has the indigenous community been SCREAMING in order to get attention that they have so many missing children/teens that the media is not covering, and that no one is helping to locate?  And yet, they stepped up to help in the search for Cooper.  This model of grace is but one of the positive messages that can be taken from this week's events.

On Feb 22, 2016, a drum circle and smudging ceremony was held to honour Cooper and to support the grieving family, friends, and community.  Facilitating a smudge ceremony for a non-indigenous family in itself is an extremely honoring gesture.  In Manitoba, we have been trying to find ways to integrate the communities of indigenous and non-indigenous communities for years, especially since the spurning Maclean's article (Jan 22, 2015) that deemed us the most racist city in Canada.  Even holding summits and having a website to discuss ways to improve our attitudes and lessen racism, have not been as effective a measure as Bear Clan Patrol's actions this week.  When real life presented an opportunity to walk the walk of the acceptance of all races in Manitoba, Bear Clan Patrol moved towards healing the discord between communities.  And those actions were taken by representatives of a community that should be the most angry with the amount of coverage Cooper's disappearance has received, in comparison to the coverage missing indigenous children/teens have received in the past or present.

There were many that searched for Cooper - yes, he was still in high school, had strong ties with a hockey team, etc.  However, if we are honest with ourselves, painting ourselves with the broad strokes as representatives of the 'non-indigenous' communities, can we say we have put in as much effort and focus as a public people to support our neighbouring indigenous communities in their searches?  Why not?  If it is a case that the media does not cover the indigenous community disappearances with the same fervor, this is still no excuse.  Now with social media at our fingertips, all it takes is a Facebook post from an indigenous member to shed light on another disappearance.  The next time this happens, will we band together, and put our time and efforts into finding their children with the same expansiveness as the search that has just happened for Cooper over this week?

Bear Clan Patrol has given us the template of what to do the next time a tragedy of a missing child occurs, regardless of race - to not focus on the past hurts, but to focus on what is the right thing to do.  I think the least we can do for all of the missing children/teens out there who have had their lives taken from them too soon, is to give as much effort as was shown for Cooper.  I'm sure Cooper would be overwhelmed and touched, as his family is, with the outpouring of support and love that has been shown over this past week.

If out of this tragedy, the indigenous and non-indigenous communities could begin to work together and destroy the walls of 'they' versus 'us', there would be a dim yet positive layer to this awful situation.  We owe it to Cooper.  We owe it to every missing child/teen, no matter their race, religion, or creed.

Thank you Larry Morrissette and James Favel, for taking the first step in such a tangible way to heal the rift between indigenous and non-indigenous communities in Manitoba.  You have given us a standard to hold ourselves to.  Now it's up to us, to DO it, when it is our turn to walk the walk and talk the talk.

And thank you to the Nemeth family, who in the depth of their grief, were still able to acknowledge the significance of communities working together and to be grateful for its effect.

Both representatives for the 'indigenous' and 'non-indigenous' in this case, have reached out and have acknowledged each other with grace and gratitude.  It is a step forward for all of us in Manitoba.

Rest in peace Cooper.  Already, your disappearance and death has brought more Light and unity into the world, and at the very least, to Manitoba.

 

 

Maureen Becker

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Finding the 'True Me'/Detaching From External Mirrors

I haven't written a blog for a long time.  I decided rather than writing a blog because I 'should' (timing wise), that I would only write a blog when I was 'inspired'.  Consider me inspired today.

 

The last time I wrote a blog, it was about my stubborn need to gain a lot of weight in order to gain a respect for my body.  I thought I had learned all 'my lessons' when it came to my weight gain.  However, my lessons were far from over.  

It's a funny thing to all of a sudden be able to play out your life with a different lens - almost like you get to wear a mask or costume that is different than who you really are, and then play out your life again and see how people treat you NOW.  You are the same on the inside, but not on the outside.  How much does this change your experience?Tremendously!  And though it has been really interesting to experience the world reacting to 'the bigger me' in a different way - whether it be family, friends, colleagues in the spiritual world, clients, or MEN - yes, I happen to be single as of this moment - the 'lesson' that has come forth time and time again is LOVE YOURSELF UNCONDITiONALLY.

Not only has my learning been about respecting my body and what I put in it, but it's also been to realize that if you rely on any outside sources to mirror to you whether you are deemed acceptable or not, you are bound for low self-esteem to never have its chance to be cured.  Relying on the 'external mirror' as SAM calls it, keeps you constantly at the mercy of others.  And to be at the mercy of others for who you are, is a ridiculous way to live your life.  It's a known fact - not everyone is going to like you.  Not everyone is going to understand you.  In fact, some people may hate you, whether they are justified to have those feelings or not.  The one person who will never fail you, who is always there for you, who should always be accepting of you, is YOU.  We all know this in theory, right????

AND YET, we live in a society where we are constantly programmed to put more energy and attention towards what others think of us, than what we think of ourselves.  We present ourselves based on how we believe we SHOULD be presenting ourselves.  After all, if there are so many opinions about how a person should look or behave throughout society, the masses must be right, correct?

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The only person who can really know who you are, is you.  Do you feel you have an intimate enough relationship with yourself to know who you really are, without your image being influenced by others?  Being single with this weight gain has probably been the best resource I have had with which to learn my lessons on detaching myself from the external mirror.  I have discovered that there are some men who really love bigger/overweight/curvy/pick your word women.  In fact, they CHOOSE those women over fit women.  Who knew??!!

And of course, there are other men who prefer women who are fit/slim/model-like/pick your word.  Well, when you are online dating, all men have access to you and your pictures - the men who think you are disgusting, lazy and fat, and the men who are attracted to you and treating you like a goddess.  I have had a few men in the last couple of years who I went on a few dates with, break up with me because I wasn't their 'body type'.  This I expected.  What I did not expect, was to have the opposite experience.  I was lucky enough to date a man for a few months who was absolutely in love with my overweight, BBW body.  He worshipped my body, every last flabby inch of it.  He called me a goddess.  All of the mind programming I had growing up about what was attractive and acceptable, was blown away by this one simple expression of truth by this man.  In fact, he admitted he would be less attracted to me if I LOST weight.  Are you kidding me?  Now that's a new one.

And that was the point.  In that moment, the epiphany hit - if I rely on what others think about my body in order to feel good about myself (men being the external mirror in this case), I'll never be happy.  I could feel safe as 'the goddess' only to lose some weight by choosing healthier foods and then become 'too thin' for my suitor's liking.  I could lose the weight now, attract a man who likes 'curvy but not fat' girls, only to have him be less attracted when over a year I gain a few of the pounds back.  I never thought that I was seeking out a healing agent for my self-esteem through the acceptance of others, but I was. Sure, I know all of the talk - "Love yourself!  Embrace your inner goddess!  Be you!  Who cares what others think about you!"  I knew that this was the way to an unshakable self-esteem.  When I was curvy but thinner, I thought I had unshakable self-esteem and that I had built it within myself.

I was kidding myself.  I had found self-esteem because I was more accepted by others when I was thinner.  Which meant, my self-esteem was riding on other people's opinions as the external mirror all along.  When I gained all the weight, and had different reactions from everyone, I began to realize how embarrassed I felt to be at this higher weight.  Why would SAM suggest that being this weight could teach me so much?  'Being fat' was damaging my self-esteem wasn't it?  Then the epiphany.  What self-esteem?  My self-esteem had been built on sand.  Sand that could be built up or blown away easily in the wind based on who was judging me in the moment.

So NOW I see why SAM said it could teach me so much.  Treating my body with more respect and dealing with my sugar addiction wasn't the whole battle, it is only a slice of the huge pie.  I now, as this 'fatter, less acceptable being', have the opportunity to discover myself as I am now, and love myself, regardless of what others think of me.  NOW I can actually learn what it means to not care about what others think.  To explore fully in reality that 'you will never please everyone all of the time', was an important path for me to walk these last few years, especially while being single.  To realize that for some men, if I got to a healthier weight, they would find me unattractive, was MIND BLOWING, considering what societal mirroring teaches us.

So if I lose the external mirror, I am left with me, myself and I.  Me, myself and I are a work in progress. Sometimes I look at my overweight body and see its beauty and curves. Other days I see it and loathe that I am not my skinnier self.  I have discovered that I am neither one of those images in my mind.  The 'true me', the weight that I would easily be able to keep stable because my lifestyle changes would be consistent, is yet to be born.  I don't know what weight I am going to end up being.  I know it is less than 285 lbs and I have already lost 10 pounds simply by avoiding wheat.  I know that as I continue to make other diet/food allergy changes (sugar replacements, gluten replacements, no corn, no dairy) that more weight will fall off. I need to make these changes for my health, not vanity. But I am not rushing it.  The mistake I made last time was becoming paranoid about food - 'good food' and 'bad food'.  No 'bad food' came near my mouth for two years.  This time, I need to choose to go gluten-free because I know for me, it helps me be more clear-headed and less tired.  I need to make the changes to improve my inner health, not for attempts at outer acceptance.

The journey is taking way longer for me to get there than I thought.  I resist going fully gluten/sugar/corn/dairy-free 24/7, 365 days a year because it still makes life difficult when I am cooking family meals, eating with others, and when I am dating.  Ever try going on a first date with someone who watches you in horror as you order your 'gluten-free, sugar-free, corn-free, dairy-free food?

When Harry Met Sally - her order right before the 'fake orgasm' scene

Waitress: Hi, what can I get ya?
Harry: I'll have a number three.
Sally: I'd like the chef salad please with the oil and vinegar
on the side and the apple pie a la mode.
Waitress: Chef and apple a la mode.
Sally: But I'd like the pie heated and I don't want the
ice cream on top I want it on the side and I'd like strawberry instead
of vanilla if you have it if not then no ice cream just whipped cream
but only if it's real if it's out of a can then nothing.
Waitress: Not even the pie?
Sally: No, just the pie, but then not heated.
Waitress: Uh huh.

 I still am transmuting all of the rigid beliefs I have about 'being healthy' from my days when I was 145 lbs.  I know my 'true me' isn't that girl either.

And the biggest realization?  That's okay.  It's okay that I am still learning lessons to do with my weight - my weight has been my Achilles heel since my teens.  It's okay that I am still not willing to change my diet to honor all of my food allergies/intolerances 24/7, 365 days.  Every day that I substitute a food I can tolerate that is healthy, and let go of the offending food that made my body tired, itchy, blotchy, bloaty...I am one step closer to success.  It's okay that I am a practitioner who helps other deal with their issues, and yet I still struggle with 'an issue' so much myself.  It's okay, because I am human.  And in this human game, we are here to learn.  And learn I am doing.  I will learn what my true food and exercise lifestyle is, learn how to live it every day without feeling like I am on a 'diet' or giving up anything, and slowly but surely, I will discover the True Me.  One step at a time.  Here's to the journey, and all the negative beliefs that will be left behind.

Until next time,

Maureen 

 

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Bullying - Right Down To The Chickens...

"Every time you shrug and say, "Oh that's a shame" and move on with your lives, you have just driven by the pimp beating the prostitute on the sidewalk for not providing him with enough quality merchandise..." - SAM


I don't consider myself overly political when it comes to social politics - save the whales, save the environment....I find myself in the category of being interested in those articles, wanting to improve (ex. recycle more), but I am far from a 'tree hugger' (which is yet another stereotype of being spiritual/new age/ or a channel).

Enter John Oliver. I love this dude. He is political, but he uses humor to get across his messages. As I watch his show (and subscribe to his youtube channel) I have become much more aware of the injustices that he has no fear in shining a light on. You go for it, John Oliver!!!

His latest one, on chicken farmers, got me thinking - do people who are trying to be 'a good person' ever wonder what the right thing to do is when you get sent a video like this? We live in Canada, this is a USA show, but much of what he talks about affects us too. So how can one be political and earth conscious without being considered some cuckoo who is constantly griping about conspiracy theories?

I decided I would ask SAM what exactly they thought about what we humans should be doing in regards to videos or articles that show up in social media. Do we share them? Ignore them? Get on the bandwagon? What is in balance?

This particular John Oliver video is about the whole chicken farming industry. It's 16 minutes so if you're not interested in watching, here is a really brief recap:

The farmers who raise the chickens in the most inhumane environment actually are not making money - they are below the poverty line due to the chicken companies regulating them, and the government not regulating the chicken companies. It's basically, according to SAM, a situation of bullying all around. The chickens are bullied by being put in these huge chicken houses, without sunlight or space to move. They are given antibiotics and growth hormones so when the chicken is ready to land on our dinner plate, it will be twice the size of a free range chicken. Farmers who speak out against the treatment and regulations of the chickens are then bullied by the chicken companies who buy their chickens - they are paid less if they complain, threatened, even shut down. The bigger your mouth and the more you try to stand up for what's right, the more chance you become bankrupt. So the farmers stay quiet, and stay abused by the system.

So who can save the day here? This is where the government is supposed to step in to make better regulations to protect the farmers and the chickens from the bullying. But instead, there is bullying within the political system, and so these 'regulations' never get passed. Bullying, bullying, bullying, it's all about power then, and not about what is truly for anyone's highest good.

So here is what SAM says in their own words:

We like the fact that we can take real life events and put our spin or perspective on them to show you a different lens with which to view the world. No, we don't think that the solution is for everyone to get on their soapbox, or chain themselves to the tree that is about to be removed. However, the power paradigm is completely out of balance. As a person who hears about these type of political situations (and there are many, chickens is but a simple example), you believe you have no power - after all, you know you're not going to chain yourself to a chicken house in efforts to save the chickens, nor are you going to 'save the farmers' by speaking out when you hear the farmers are getting threatened. So instead, human instinct is to have a moment of empathy, "Oh, isn't that awful!", maybe even send around the article or video, and then let it go. And yet...you forget that you, the consumer, have the most power of all, because the chicken companies are in business because of you.

Now in John Oliver's stance, he claimed near the end of his video that no one was going to stop eating chicken because everyone loved it. Instead, he wanted the pressure to be put on the new regulations bill that will be passed or not passed in the next month. Yet again, the bullying will interfere with 'doing the right thing' - for those in power will say yay or nay based on whether they have been threatened or feel safe enough to take a stand. So these individuals who hold the power as those who 'represent the people' aren't usually willing to be the sacrificial lamb. So then it has to go farther down the totem pole, and that comes back to you.

You the people, decide what happens to both the chickens and the farmers. Do you buy chicken brands that follow this type of practice? Or do you go the extra distance to a different store/shop that sells free range chickens or is supplied by local farmers?

Do you educate yourself about these situations so you actually know what you are buying, rather than just shrug as you quickly pick up your chicken at the most convenient supermarket?

It is a very powerless feeling to feel like you have no say in these bigger picture issues. And yet, the only reason you don't have say is because you choose to say nothing and do nothing. The power paradigm would switch to the companies having less power, and the government not being coerced into rejecting a bill amendment, if 'the people' were all buying chicken that had humane practices for both the animal in question and the farmers.

The paradigm is so unbalanced because you the people, do not feel like there is anything you can do. You, as humans, choose to take the lens of 'Well what can I do about it?".

Do you realize you do this in your personal life as well? You notice an injustice - something you have done/has been done to you in the past that you are unwilling to take accountability for. You instead choose to feel like a victim, and then get angrier that no one is saving you or standing up for you. Do you not see the irony, the bigger picture?

The consciousness of the planet still needs much work. The most work, in our mind, is in the place of self-accountability. There are many spiritual folks out there focusing on love, joy, peace.....yes yes, even the 'Kumbaya - All Is Well' stereotype. However there is a great need for folks to pay attention to what they do, what they say, and who and what they interact with. You each create your own experience, and in a sense, your own world.

Why are you agreeing to play the game in a world where chicken farmers are the prostitutes, the pimps are the companies/lack of government courage, and the chickens themselves are also pawns in this power imbalance? Every time you shrug and say "Oh that's a shame" and move on with your lives, you have just driven by the pimp beating the prostitute on the sidewalk for not providing him with enough quality merchandise - in this case, fat, diseased, hormone/steroid-filled chickens. If you passed someone on the road beating up a farmer, taking away his money, and threatening his life, would you drive by, or help? So why is this any different?

It is different because of what we call the 'ignorance is blilss' contract. Many of you humans have chosen to 'stay blind' to much of the power imbalances in the world today. This is the contract that you have made with your interaction on earth during this lifetime - the "It's not my problem...someone else will do something about it." If you see these issues with clarity, then accountability will be required on your parts to DO or SAY something, to make a change, and no one wants to be 'that person'. However, what if everyone was that person?

What if after reading this article and watching the John Oliver research on chickens, you actually shared this article and John Oliver's video?

What if more people educated themselves to what is really happening, rather than blindly picking products without any understanding of how those products got from production to your table?

You need to become accountable as humans, in order to play the game with your eyes open.

We're not asking you to hug a chicken, chain yourself to a chicken coop, or stage a revolt in a town meeting. We are asking you to OPEN YOUR EYES, and pay attention to your own individual accountability for who you are, and what/who you choose to interact with on a daily basis. Do you feed into this imbalanced power paradigm, or do you heal it?

Something to ponder, isn't it?

With grace,

SAM/Maureen & Guides

copyright Source Within 2015. All rights reserved.

Here is John Oliver's 16 minute video: https://youtu.be/X9wHzt6gBgI


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Bullying - Right Down To The Chickens...

blog-0727619001432011541.jpg"Every time you shrug and say, "Oh that's a shame" and move on with your lives, you have just driven by the pimp beating the prostitute on the sidewalk for not providing him with enough quality merchandise..." - SAM

 

 

I don't consider myself overly political when it comes to social politics - save the whales, save the environment....I find myself in the category of being interested in those articles, wanting to improve (ex. recycle more), but I am far from a 'tree hugger' (which is yet another stereotype of being spiritual/new age/ or a channel).

 

Enter John Oliver. I love this dude. He is political, but he uses humor to get across his messages. As I watch his show (and subscribe to his youtube channel) I have become much more aware of the injustices that he has no fear in shining a light on. You go for it, John Oliver!!!

 

His latest one, on chicken farmers, got me thinking - do people who are trying to be 'a good person' ever wonder what the right thing to do is when you get sent a video like this? We live in Canada, this is a USA show, but much of what he talks about affects us too. So how can one be political and earth conscious without being considered some cuckoo who is constantly griping about conspiracy theories?

 

I decided I would ask SAM what exactly they thought about what we humans should be doing in regards to videos or articles that show up in social media. Do we share them? Ignore them? Get on the bandwagon? What is in balance?

 

This particular John Oliver video is about the whole chicken farming industry. It's 16 minutes so if you're not interested in watching, here is a really brief recap:

 

The farmers who raise the chickens in the most inhumane environment actually are not making money - they are below the poverty line due to the chicken companies regulating them, and the government not regulating the chicken companies. It's basically, according to SAM, a situation of bullying all around. The chickens are bullied by being put in these huge chicken houses, without sunlight or space to move. They are given antibiotics and growth hormones so when the chicken is ready to land on our dinner plate, it will be twice the size of a free range chicken. Farmers who speak out against the treatment and regulations of the chickens are then bullied by the chicken companies who buy their chickens - they are paid less if they complain, threatened, even shut down. The bigger your mouth and the more you try to stand up for what's right, the more chance you become bankrupt. So the farmers stay quiet, and stay abused by the system.

 

So who can save the day here? This is where the government is supposed to step in to make better regulations to protect the farmers and the chickens from the bullying. But instead, there is bullying within the political system, and so these 'regulations' never get passed. Bullying, bullying, bullying, it's all about power then, and not about what is truly for anyone's highest good.

 

So here is what SAM says in their own words:

 

We like the fact that we can take real life events and put our spin or perspective on them to show you a different lens with which to view the world. No, we don't think that the solution is for everyone to get on their soapbox, or chain themselves to the tree that is about to be removed. However, the power paradigm is completely out of balance. As a person who hears about these type of political situations (and there are many, chickens is but a simple example), you believe you have no power - after all, you know you're not going to chain yourself to a chicken house in efforts to save the chickens, nor are you going to 'save the farmers' by speaking out when you hear the farmers are getting threatened. So instead, human instinct is to have a moment of empathy, "Oh, isn't that awful!", maybe even send around the article or video, and then let it go. And yet...you forget that you, the consumer, have the most power of all, because the chicken companies are in business because of you.

 

Now in John Oliver's stance, he claimed near the end of his video that no one was going to stop eating chicken because everyone loved it. Instead, he wanted the pressure to be put on the new regulations bill that will be passed or not passed in the next month. Yet again, the bullying will interfere with 'doing the right thing' - for those in power will say yay or nay based on whether they have been threatened or feel safe enough to take a stand. So these individuals who hold the power as those who 'represent the people' aren't usually willing to be the sacrificial lamb. So then it has to go farther down the totem pole, and that comes back to you.

 

You the people, decide what happens to both the chickens and the farmers. Do you buy chicken brands that follow this type of practice? Or do you go the extra distance to a different store/shop that sells free range chickens or is supplied by local farmers?

 

Do you educate yourself about these situations so you actually know what you are buying, rather than just shrug as you quickly pick up your chicken at the most convenient supermarket?

 

It is a very powerless feeling to feel like you have no say in these bigger picture issues. And yet, the only reason you don't have say is because you choose to say nothing and do nothing. The power paradigm would switch to the companies having less power, and the government not being coerced into rejecting a bill amendment, if 'the people' were all buying chicken that had humane practices for both the animal in question and the farmers.

 

The paradigm is so unbalanced because you the people, do not feel like there is anything you can do. You, as humans, choose to take the lens of 'Well what can I do about it?".

 

Do you realize you do this in your personal life as well? You notice an injustice - something you have done/has been done to you in the past that you are unwilling to take accountability for. You instead choose to feel like a victim, and then get angrier that no one is saving you or standing up for you. Do you not see the irony, the bigger picture?

 

The consciousness of the planet still needs much work. The most work, in our mind, is in the place of self-accountability. There are many spiritual folks out there focusing on love, joy, peace.....yes yes, even the 'Kumbaya - All Is Well' stereotype. However there is a great need for folks to pay attention to what they do, what they say, and who and what they interact with. You each create your own experience, and in a sense, your own world.

 

Why are you agreeing to play the game in a world where chicken farmers are the prostitutes, the pimps are the companies/lack of government courage, and the chickens themselves are also pawns in this power imbalance? Every time you shrug and say "Oh that's a shame" and move on with your lives, you have just driven by the pimp beating the prostitute on the sidewalk for not providing him with enough quality merchandise - in this case, fat, diseased, hormone/steroid-filled chickens. If you passed someone on the road beating up a farmer, taking away his money, and threatening his life, would you drive by, or help? So why is this any different?

 

It is different because of what we call the 'ignorance is bliss' contract. Many of you humans have chosen to 'stay blind' to much of the power imbalances in the world today. This is the contract that you have made with your interaction on earth during this lifetime - the "It's not my problem...someone else will do something about it." If you see these issues with clarity, then accountability will be required on your parts to DO or SAY something, to make a change, and no one wants to be 'that person'. However, what if everyone was that person?

 

What if after reading this article and watching the John Oliver research on chickens, you actually shared this article and John Oliver's video?

 

What if more people educated themselves to what is really happening, rather than blindly picking products without any understanding of how those products got from production to your table?

 

You need to become accountable as humans, in order to play the game with your eyes open.

 

We're not asking you to hug a chicken, chain yourself to a chicken coop, or stage a revolt in a town meeting. We are asking you to OPEN YOUR EYES, and pay attention to your own individual accountability for who you are, and what/who you choose to interact with on a daily basis. Do you feed into this imbalanced power paradigm, or do you heal it?

 

Something to ponder, isn't it?

 

With grace,

 

SAM/Maureen & Guides

 

copyright Source Within 2015. All rights reserved.

 

Here is John Oliver's 16 minute video: https://youtu.be/X9wHzt6gBgI

 

 

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Gratitude For Life Through Weight Gain

"By losing energy, flexibility, and mobility, I now have gratitude for health."

Hello, my name is Maureen Becker and I am a sugar addict. As a result of my little experiment with SAM over the last 2 years (to eat whatever I crave and want, whenever I want), I have gained one hundred pounds over the last two years.

What kind of spirit guide would let their host gain one hundred pounds, only to be considered 'morbidly obese' by any doctor? A smart guide. A brilliant one, actually.

I have struggled with my addiction to sugar and carbs all of my life (I'm 43). I snuck oreo cookies even when it was discovered that I was allergic to chocolate as as child. This didn't stop me - those oreos would be in my mouth, and the proof would be imminent - a rash around my mouth after the fact. But to me, even getting caught with my hand in the proverbial cookie jar was worth it.

I'm not sure where my addiction to sugar started from, but I sure know what it feels like to be under its control. There have been times in my life where my whole world and focus was on what my diet was - was I cheating and eating sugar/carbs, or was I staying clean and avoiding all the foods that I know bother me? There's a long list: sugar, wheat/gluten, corn, dairy...those are the main ones. I tried natural diets avoiding those foods - the longest I lasted was two years. I dropped weight like crazy once I avoided all my trigger foods (allergy and intolerance for digestion) however it made my life miserable in going to restaurants, over to other people's house for dinner, etc. I was 'the one that couldn't eat anything'. As a result of this 'clean' diet, I was the lowest weight I've ever been as an adult - 145 pounds.


This is me, more than a decade ago, at 145 pounds

Finally, after losing some relationships, gaining pressure on my marriage because my husband (now my ex) was frustrated with my rigid diet (I became almost a hypochondriac regarding what a 'bad' food would do to me if I ate it), I started to cheat. I no longer tried to be so clean, ate some of my trigger foods, and as a result, started gaining weight. At this point, I kept it from getting out of control by doing exercise six days a week. I kept up this regime for many years.
Eating somewhat 'clean' with lots of exercise

I felt that I had slayed the dragon. I could eat restaurant food, go to people's houses for dinner, be able to go through a drive-thru, and yet still eat healthy most of the time. AHA! I have overridden the sugar beast! I have won the war!

Or so I thought.

Until a few years ago, I got into a car accident serious enough to give me whiplash in both my neck and lower back, which forced my six-days-a-week exercise to go down to non-existent exercise. I was still eating the same foods as I did when I did exercise, and in fact was craving more sugar-laden foods because I was no longer getting my 'endorphin high' from my daily exercise. The weight started to add on.

the beginning of 'eat whatever you want'

It was then that I realized that I hadn't resolved my addiction to sugar at all. I was keeping it at bay with exercise, but I hadn't slain any beast. It was still there, lurking. Waiting for its chance to strike.

SAM offered me a different perspective at that point, a fork in the road as it were. They explained that my Soul had a few lessons to learn about addiction, trying to keep my appearance 'socially acceptable', caring about what others think, finding my own inner beauty when my outer beauty was questionable in my/society's eyes, to name a few.

They suggested that I didn't panic about my weight gain, but 'give in to it'. They asked me to consider finally slaying the Sugar Beast, but through a completely unorthodox process. "Let yourself eat", they said. "Let yourself gain. Fully give in to your cravings. For the first time in your life, allow yourself to eat all of the chocolate and sugar and junk food you want. You need to find internal reasons to be healthy, not external reasons (such as what is considered beautiful or others' expectations of how you should look.). You need to find your own reasons for eating healthier. And ironically the only way you are going to learn this, is by becoming unhealthy until you CHOOSE HEALTH."

Gain weight by choice? Were they f*cking kidding? Why the hell would I do that?

However the more I was in angst over the fact that I couldn't exercise and my sugar cravings were increasing, the more I realized I was fighting a fight that felt fairly impossible to override at that time. I wanted to be free of my addiction to sugar. They ensured me that if I let myself get fat, found my 'inner beauty' and lost my power battle with food, sooner or later, I would find a new Essence-led weight that was best for my body type, and for my Soul's learning.

Unfortunately, it seems I am quite a stubborn Soul. I had to gain one hundred pounds, overeating for a few years, needing to really experience what it is like to live with that extra weight as a lifestyle, to understand the true lesson SAM was trying to get me to understand.


current weight 285 pounds!!!!!!!

All of a sudden, I was eating chocolate every day. Going through McDonald's drive-thru (I used to curse McDonald's drive thru years ago when I was clean. I had so much food dogma, everything was either 'bad or good'. There was no in between). Now I was one of the drive-thru mamas, grabbing a meal on the go while driving my children to their dance and gymnastic classes, rather than taking the time out to plan meals and use my crockpot. Crockpot? Damn the crockpot! I didn't NEED to do that anymore. I was free. I could eat whatever I wanted!!!

I began to realize how much power I had given to food, all of my life. I could not look at food as just fuel. It was way more powerful than that. It controlled me. It controlled my thoughts. I was obsessed, and an emotional overeater. However all of a sudden, this Spring, I noticed a change within my psyche. By eating the 'naughty' foods that I would never have allowed myself to eat before without guilt, they simply became food. They lost their power over me. The naughty foods were simply food that tasted really good, but were unhealthy as a daily choice.

I was learning firsthand the results of 'eating whatever I wanted'. Moving around in a body one hundred pounds heavier was not comfortable, IS not comfortable (I'm still 100 pounds heavier as I write this today). Bending down before was one graceful movement. Now, I hesitate to bend down, for fear I won't have the flexibility to actually reach the floor with my big gut in the way. (Note to self - achieving a healthy weight is not to please others or be 'sexy', it is so you can bend down and pick up things without being out of breath. Who knew?)

All of a sudden, going to the movies (one of my favorite things to do) was a self-esteem test, as I had to wiggle my ass out of the movie seat creatively rather than stand up without my butt and hips scratching against the side arms as I rose.




Yep, that's my big fat ass. If I had to climb out of a window right now in an emergency situation, this would be my predicament.




Sigh. Too many chocolate bars...

I have gained a lot of weight to gain the Truth - I never appreciated my health when I had it.

Not one bit. I took for granted that I could move around with ease, have flexibility, have strength, breathe well, do exercise without trouble, etc. Never for one minute did I consider any of those situations to be a gift, a choice, or something that could be taken away. It just was. Now that I am out of breath easily, now that my hips squeeze tightly into chairs, now that going for a 5-10 km walk (which was my norm) seems impossible, NOW I appreciate the concept of health. I always told myself that if I could eat anything I wanted, I would be happy. I needed to realize that this was a lie my Inner Sugar Addict was telling myself. Oh I was happy as I ate the chocolate bar. However I was not happy as I waddled, doing my errands feeling my inner thighs rub together. Yet I still ate. And ate. And justified every bite to myself - "I can eat whatever I want!!"

I have needed to eat those 'offending foods', the foods that I labelled as 'bad, untouchable' for two years in order to feel like I got my fill. I had given food so much power, that it took me that long to rebel before now a chocolate bar is just that - a choice. A choice that tastes good but makes me feel so fat and tired that it robs me of health and energy. I told myself I was free by being able to eat what I wanted. However that was another lie my Inner Sugar Addict wanted me to believe. I am now entrenched in fat, having to lose a lot of weight to get back to a healthy weight. That is quite a task, one that I am just beginning the journey of.

However, I will lose weight now with a completely different consciousness. This isn't about going on a diet. This isn't about aiming for a certain weight either. This is about choosing health. I now see what SAM meant. I was never choosing health before when I exercised. I exercised so that when I was single I would be attractive to men. I ate healthy food as a woman following society's rules. I wasn't eating healthily and exercising to achieve health and well-being. I was doing so to be socially acceptable, to please others, to stay 'sexy' - all of the reasons why many of us stay at a certain weight and drive to the gym first thing in the morning. It is expected of us, if we wish to stand in the grocery store line without feeling shame as we see the myriad of magazines with slogans of "Lose 10 pounds in 5 days!" and "Get great abs to spice up your sex life!!"

NOW, I want to discover a weight where I can be healthy and happy. To eat food with a neutral consciousness, to be healthy enough to move and exercise my body, and to have energy to enjoy life. No bad or good foods. Just food, that I choose, on a daily basis, based on my intuition of what my body needs. No rebellion. No starving myself or overeating. Just eating the right fuel for my body.

Every pound gained has been worth it. I look different, that is to be sure, but I also have a different perspective now. I have my internal reasons for wanting to be healthy for the first time in my life. By losing energy, flexibility and mobility, I now have gratitude for health.

You may think this was foolish, or unnecessary. However for me, now I can finally anchor into the feeling of what it means to 'treat my body as a vessel'. I could intellectually grasp that phrase before, but I could never live it. I now understand that if I don't take care of my vessel, it won't take care of me. And if I can eat whatever I want but I am so unhealthy that I can't live life to the fullest, how is that freedom? I choose health now, because living without it, is not an enjoyable life. Eating chocolate with freedom does not trump being healthy in my vessel.

I choose health because that is my right as a human being playing this game. And to live my life by choice without it? Well, that finally feels like a ridiculous concept. Sugar Addict be gone. You've got nothing on me now that I know and feel the Truth. The jig is up.

Time to pull out and be grateful for my crock-pot, and to start moving my body with joy, because I can. Time to be grateful for all of the health I have at this moment, and have gratitude for all of the health I can achieve by choosing it, every day.

Seems easy enough to me.

And so the journey of self-love begins.

Maureen ;)

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Gratitude For Life Through Weight Gain

blog-0822351001430842882.jpg"By losing energy, flexibility, and mobility, I now have gratitude for health."

Hello, my name is Maureen Becker and I am a sugar addict. As a result of my little experiment with SAM over the last 2 years (to eat whatever I crave and want, whenever I want), I have gained one hundred pounds over the last two years.

What kind of spirit guide would let their host gain one hundred pounds, only to be considered 'morbidly obese' by any doctor? A smart guide. A brilliant one, actually.

I have struggled with my addiction to sugar and carbs all of my life (I'm 43). I snuck oreo cookies even when it was discovered that I was allergic to chocolate as as child. This didn't stop me - those oreos would be in my mouth, and the proof would be imminent - a rash around my mouth after the fact. But to me, even getting caught with my hand in the proverbial cookie jar was worth it.

I'm not sure where my addiction to sugar started from, but I sure know what it feels like to be under its control. There have been times in my life where my whole world and focus was on what my diet was - was I cheating and eating sugar/carbs, or was I staying clean and avoiding all the foods that I know bother me? There's a long list: sugar, wheat/gluten, corn, dairy...those are the main ones. I tried natural diets avoiding those foods - the longest I lasted was two years. I dropped weight like crazy once I avoided all my trigger foods (allergy and intolerance for digestion) however it made my life miserable in going to restaurants, over to other people's house for dinner, etc. I was 'the one that couldn't eat anything'. As a result of this 'clean' diet, I was the lowest weight I've ever been as an adult - 145 pounds.

blogentry-2-0-98137700-1430842286_thumb. This is me, more than a decade ago, at 145 pounds

Finally, after losing some relationships, gaining pressure on my marriage because my husband (now my ex) was frustrated with my rigid diet (I became almost a hypochondriac regarding what a 'bad' food would do to me if I ate it), I started to cheat. I no longer tried to be so clean, ate some of my trigger foods, and as a result, started gaining weight. At this point, I kept it from getting out of control by doing exercise six days a week. I kept up this regime for many years.

blogentry-2-0-95209400-1430842304_thumb. Eating somewhat 'clean' with lots of exercise

I felt that I had slayed the dragon. I could eat restaurant food, go to people's houses for dinner, be able to go through a drive-thru, and yet still eat healthy most of the time. AHA! I have overridden the sugar beast! I have won the war!

Or so I thought.

Until a few years ago, I got into a car accident serious enough to give me whiplash in both my neck and lower back, which forced my six-days-a-week exercise to go down to non-existent exercise. I was still eating the same foods as I did when I did exercise, and in fact was craving more sugar-laden foods because I was no longer getting my 'endorphin high' from my daily exercise. The weight started to add on.

blogentry-2-0-34723400-1430842314_thumb. the beginning of 'eat whatever you want'

It was then that I realized that I hadn't resolved my addiction to sugar at all. I was keeping it at bay with exercise, but I hadn't slain any beast. It was still there, lurking. Waiting for its chance to strike.

SAM offered me a different perspective at that point, a fork in the road as it were. They explained that my Soul had a few lessons to learn about addiction, trying to keep my appearance 'socially acceptable', caring about what others think, finding my own inner beauty when my outer beauty was questionable in my/society's eyes, to name a few.

They suggested that I didn't panic about my weight gain, but 'give in to it'. They asked me to consider finally slaying the Sugar Beast, but through a completely unorthodox process. "Let yourself eat", they said. "Let yourself gain. Fully give in to your cravings. For the first time in your life, allow yourself to eat all of the chocolate and sugar and junk food you want. You need to find internal reasons to be healthy, not external reasons (such as what is considered beautiful or others' expectations of how you should look.). You need to find your own reasons for eating healthier. And ironically the only way you are going to learn this, is by becoming unhealthy until you CHOOSE HEALTH."

Gain weight by choice? Were they f*cking kidding? Why the hell would I do that?

However the more I was in angst over the fact that I couldn't exercise and my sugar cravings were increasing, the more I realized I was fighting a fight that felt fairly impossible to override at that time. I wanted to be free of my addiction to sugar. They ensured me that if I let myself get fat, found my 'inner beauty' and lost my power battle with food, sooner or later, I would find a new Essence-led weight that was best for my body type, and for my Soul's learning.

Unfortunately, it seems I am quite a stubborn Soul. I had to gain one hundred pounds, overeating for a few years, needing to really experience what it is like to live with that extra weight as a lifestyle, to understand the true lesson SAM was trying to get me to understand.

blogentry-2-0-19973100-1430842337_thumb. current weight 285 pounds!!!!!!!

All of a sudden, I was eating chocolate every day. Going through McDonald's drive-thru (I used to curse McDonald's drive thru years ago when I was clean. I had so much food dogma, everything was either 'bad or good'. There was no in between). Now I was one of the drive-thru mamas, grabbing a meal on the go while driving my children to their dance and gymnastic classes, rather than taking the time out to plan meals and use my crockpot. Crockpot? Damn the crockpot! I didn't NEED to do that anymore. I was free. I could eat whatever I wanted!!!

I began to realize how much power I had given to food, all of my life. I could not look at food as just fuel. It was way more powerful than that. It controlled me. It controlled my thoughts. I was obsessed, and an emotional overeater. However all of a sudden, this Spring, I noticed a change within my psyche. By eating the 'naughty' foods that I would never have allowed myself to eat before without guilt, they simply became food. They lost their power over me. The naughty foods were simply food that tasted really good, but were unhealthy as a daily choice.

I was learning firsthand the results of 'eating whatever I wanted'. Moving around in a body one hundred pounds heavier was not comfortable, IS not comfortable (I'm still 100 pounds heavier as I write this today). Bending down before was one graceful movement. Now, I hesitate to bend down, for fear I won't have the flexibility to actually reach the floor with my big gut in the way. (Note to self - achieving a healthy weight is not to please others or be 'sexy', it is so you can bend down and pick up things without being out of breath. Who knew?)

All of a sudden, going to the movies (one of my favorite things to do) was a self-esteem test, as I had to wiggle my ass out of the movie seat creatively rather than stand up without my butt and hips scratching against the side arms as I rose.

blogentry-2-0-17987100-1430838250_thumb.

Yep, that's my big fat ass. If I had to climb out of a window right now in an emergency situation, this would be my predicament.

blogentry-2-0-95725200-1430838263_thumb.

Sigh. Too many chocolate bars...

I have gained a lot of weight to gain the Truth - I never appreciated my health when I had it.

Not one bit. I took for granted that I could move around with ease, have flexibility, have strength, breathe well, do exercise without trouble, etc. Never for one minute did I consider any of those situations to be a gift, a choice, or something that could be taken away. It just was. Now that I am out of breath easily, now that my hips squeeze tightly into chairs, now that going for a 5-10 km walk (which was my norm) seems impossible, NOW I appreciate the concept of health. I always told myself that if I could eat anything I wanted, I would be happy. I needed to realize that this was a lie my Inner Sugar Addict was telling myself. Oh I was happy as I ate the chocolate bar. However I was not happy as I waddled, doing my errands feeling my inner thighs rub together. Yet I still ate. And ate. And justified every bite to myself - "I can eat whatever I want!!"

I have needed to eat those 'offending foods', the foods that I labelled as 'bad, untouchable' for two years in order to feel like I got my fill. I had given food so much power, that it took me that long to rebel before now a chocolate bar is just that - a choice. A choice that tastes good but makes me feel so fat and tired that it robs me of health and energy. I told myself I was free by being able to eat what I wanted. However that was another lie my Inner Sugar Addict wanted me to believe. I am now entrenched in fat, having to lose a lot of weight to get back to a healthy weight. That is quite a task, one that I am just beginning the journey of.

However, I will lose weight now with a completely different consciousness. This isn't about going on a diet. This isn't about aiming for a certain weight either. This is about choosing health. I now see what SAM meant. I was never choosing health before when I exercised. I exercised so that when I was single I would be attractive to men. I ate healthy food as a woman following society's rules. I wasn't eating healthily and exercising to achieve health and well-being. I was doing so to be socially acceptable, to please others, to stay 'sexy' - all of the reasons why many of us stay at a certain weight and drive to the gym first thing in the morning. It is expected of us, if we wish to stand in the grocery store line without feeling shame as we see the myriad of magazines with slogans of "Lose 10 pounds in 5 days!" and "Get great abs to spice up your sex life!!"

NOW, I want to discover a weight where I can be healthy and happy. To eat food with a neutral consciousness, to be healthy enough to move and exercise my body, and to have energy to enjoy life. No bad or good foods. Just food, that I choose, on a daily basis, based on my intuition of what my body needs. No rebellion. No starving myself or overeating. Just eating the right fuel for my body.

Every pound gained has been worth it. I look different, that is to be sure, but I also have a different perspective now. I have my internal reasons for wanting to be healthy for the first time in my life. By losing energy, flexibility and mobility, I now have gratitude for health.

You may think this was foolish, or unnecessary. However for me, now I can finally anchor into the feeling of what it means to 'treat my body as a vessel'. I could intellectually grasp that phrase before, but I could never live it. I now understand that if I don't take care of my vessel, it won't take care of me. And if I can eat whatever I want but I am so unhealthy that I can't live life to the fullest, how is that freedom? I choose health now, because living without it, is not an enjoyable life. Eating chocolate with freedom does not trump being healthy in my vessel.

I choose health because that is my right as a human being playing this game. And to live my life by choice without it? Well, that finally feels like a ridiculous concept. Sugar Addict be gone. You've got nothing on me now that I know and feel the Truth. The jig is up.

Time to pull out and be grateful for my crock-pot, and to start moving my body with joy, because I can. Time to be grateful for all of the health I have at this moment, and have gratitude for all of the health I can achieve by choosing it, every day.

Seems easy enough to me.

And so the journey of self-love begins.

Maureen ;)

copyright Source Within 2015. All rights reserved.

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